Reaching Through the Weeping Wall

I find it curious the things we humans do in our interactions with each other. We as evolving beings are moving, mostly I believe, towards greater expressions of love and understanding. Yet, interestingly enough, we occasionally put up walls between each other. Walls that separate us from communicating; from feeling. Sometimes we do this consciously, sometimes unconsciously.

I know that I have done this and my family, my friends and co-workers (who are also my friends) feel this sudden separation, some more acutely than others. Oftentimes I, myself, am not aware that this is happening but when it does become evident, I want to go to that wall and see why it is there.

I feel my heart go there first. My heart reaches out and touches the wall, feels its texture, its harsh coldness, and my heart weeps. What is this wall that separates me from another? The heart feels the connection with this other person and feels the essence of the beauty of our souls' journey that we share and the wonder that must exist on the other side of the wall. The heart also feels the confusion, pain and fear that must be behind the creation of the wall. What is this confusion, pain and fear? What is this wall protecting?

The soul, I imagine, is on the other side of the wall but I believe to the soul the wall is only an illusion. From it's perspective there is no wall but it understands the dynamics that created the perceived wall. I believe it lovingly encourages the heart by gently saying, "Come on, come on, you can make this journey." But the heart cannot make the journey alone through the wall as the heart did not create the wall. The mind did. The mind did because it could not accept the moment as it was unfolding. The mind had an investment, thinking things had to be a certain way in order for it to be happy and when the moment was not unfolding according to it's design it goes into 'protective wall' construction mode, thinking it is creating safety for itself.

But the heart feels the constrictiveness of the wall and asks the mind to let go, to let life unfold at it's natural pace. For me, I can feel the confusion of my mind and longing of my heart for peace. The mind tries to figure it all out but the heart gently reminds the mind that that, in itself, can be a cleaver tactic to avoid facing the wall. Gently, loving, the heart makes the journey to the mind, asking the mind to simply surrender, to let go of expectations, of judgments, of the need to control others or situations.

At the moment of surrender the mind joins with the heart, the perceived wall falls and the soul moves up into the experience. In those moments I feel joyous and free, centered and alive. In those moments I feel in acceptance of life as it is and life responds by lovingly accepting me as I am. This is truly the joy the mind was seeking in the first place, only it was looking for it in the wrong places, outside of itself.

The whole experience was then, in effect, a truly wondrous gift, a way to realign ourselves with our own inner truth, our own inner knowingness, our own inner joy. It has given us back to ourselves. And it is only then that we can be truly present for another, fully share ourselves with another, and fully receive from another. It is from this foundation that we can love and be loved in ways that gives greater expressions to the joy that already resides within.

Enjoy life's sacred journey.

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